I have so much to say but nothing spills...

I've been enjoying the past few days. Just a select group of people to hang out with.. it makes me super happy. I gotta thank you Enza! We stick through it all together. I've been given a lot to digest in a day and I don't feel too good about letting it alll out yet... I need me a journal again. a real one.

In these past few days I hae really come to realize that I miss a lot of things. I miss my family. I miss my homies that are off studying somewhere else. I miss the simplicities of life.

The best way to blog, lj, etc is to forget that most ANYone can access it and read it. heh

That said, today Enza was chatting with Meg. Oh.. I miss her so. Like.. I really do. Man, two years.. why didn't we tell one another how we felt before the goddamn prom? Some things in life you can't help but regret. I just missed being with her today.

I don't miss the harassment I usually get, cuz I'm still getting it all the way here at UCR. Having Peter live right below Tim and Art has already given me shit. Ricky Oh too. Man... LEAVE ME ALONE you closed minded fucks... it's just pathetic to see that you idiots go to your churches and feel so above people, yet you go online and call people fags. Hypocrites. I hate em

Times like this I feel bad for my friends, because they get to see me in a bitter bad mood. I'm sorry, guys. =[ I wish I could be more interesting, more open, more willing to delve into these issues like I used to... but I'm not, and I can't, and I can only try to forget all this stupid shit and keep on enjoying myself and the GOOD people I encounter. This entry really de-emphasized all the good that has been going on over here, and I apologize. I don't usually get this pissy and negative. later

girly motif: what are they ... still stuck in high school
girly motif: how stupid
theeseXayone: yeah yeah
theeseXayone: and i KNOW
theeseXayone: i shouldnt let this shit bother me anyjmore
theeseXayone: but man... it just aggravates me
girly motif: so don't
theeseXayone: i wanted to FORGET EVERYTHING
girly motif: tell them to cut off their dick and suck it