Friday nite was tite... got to go out w/ mom, it was fun. I don't mean my mother either.

I feel a little more clear or whatever, about how I was feeling before. I thikn I let the past overtake me too much sometimes. I need to handle this carefully - especially since this can really perpetuate more shit in my life if I'm not careful. So no more talking about THAT, unless it's with someone one on one. Yeah. Which reminds me to remind Peter about the metco meeting tuesday. Yay for remembering..

This is the first sat nite I spend all alone in a while... I wanna do so many things.

-I wanna play 'cube with Peter. I wanna go to his house again, or hang out somewhere.
-I wanna drive.
-I wanna go to a GA meeting w/ Nicole.
-I wanna have classes w/ Michelle.
-I wanna scan all the pics I have and make a webpage akin to Nic's pic section.
-I wanna live in a house.
-I wanna erase my old habits out of existence.
-I wanna go out w/ SO many people... it's ridiculous. Which in a way for me means, I wanna make up for... lost time.
-I wanna learn Korean (still!)
-I wanna have my n64 back. I'm tired of being misled, tired of feeling fucked with... so if it means being really aggressive and confrontational, then so BE IT.
-I wanna make everyone feel better. Tim seems to only wanna deal with me when he's on an emotional high. I can understand that, but I don't have the time.
-I wanna know what will become of me these next 5 months... which will prove crucial to the very essence of my being. I wanna be smarter...
-I wanna enjoy every lasting second I have w/ my people. Sometimes I feel I don't embrace the moment enough.
-I wanna stop wanting... and start acting upon the want. I'll start soon >P

Such an ambitious man today... well more than usual. Is that possible? So angry so happy... so twizted... watch out world!

Oh yeah and I wanna finish paying for that fucking senior ad. I need donations! =[